Saturday, June 14, 2025

Biography of a poetic girl

08/12/24


Alone at six
Learning things and how to fix

Life was tough
At age six, things were rough

Independent
No time for merriment

No childhood life to call
No time to play at all

In solitude,
She'd watched the multitude

A young girl who grew up,
Without someone to call up

She couldn't ask for help
So, she kept everything to herself

With pens and notes
She'd just write unspoken quotes

Quietly, her fears and pains
She'd wail using strokes of her pens

When will troubles end
Someday, her broken heart, she'd try to mend

At teens, things are still difficult.
She prayed problems will come to halt

But no, 'til now they keep taunting
At night, she cried, anxiety is haunting










Friday, June 13, 2025

A'Tin 2

Poem by Mrs. Bee 2021 nang una kayong marinig Ang mga liriko ng inyong kanta'y nakakakilig 'Di man puro patungkol sa pag-ibig Pero lahat ng kwento'y nakakaantig. "MaPa" na isinulat para kay inay at itay Binigyang respeto sakripisyo nilang tunay Sa kanilang aruga, pagmamahal at gabay Salamat sa pag-alaala sa kanilang mga buhay. Ang ilang musika'y nagbibigay inspirasyon Sa tulad kong halos di makaahon At hirap sa buhay sa dami ng hamon Sa sakit at problemang halos walang solusyon Pero salamat sa inyong inspirasyon! Sa mga melodiyang sa tenga'y may sensasyon Nakakapagpasaya at minsa'y nakakaiyak Pero minsa'y makabuhay dugo at napapaindak Regalo sa 'kin ang SB19 at alam ko sa ibang A'tin din Simple man o puno ng gulo ang buhay natin Masaya naman makita't marinig lang ng A'tin Mga musikang sumasalamin sa buhay natin. Mapatindera ng KALAKAL o sino man ay nakikitang May ALAB sa puso ang pakiramDAM ng bawat isa TILALUHA, tanging nasasambit sa lungkot at saya Ng musikang naging ILAW sa daang halos di makita. At kung ayaw ng iba sa kanila, di 'wag nyo! "DUNGKA!" sigaw ng A'tin. H'wag ka dito! Sa mi'y saya ang dulot ng kanilang liriko Dasal nami'y matunaw din ang NYEBE mong puso! At sana balang araw din ay makita mo Busilak at GENTO ang kanilang mga puso Ang MAHALIMA hatid ay ligaya sa A'tin (atin) HANGGANG SA HULI, kita kits sa homecomin'


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Wednesday, April 16, 2025

Misery


By: Mrs. Bee

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Haven't been myself lately (I'm) acting indifferently Maybe it's because you're gone Our love has ended, it's done I tried to keep quiet I tried to keep my cool But deep inside my heart I'm crying like a fool You left me, you break me Now, I'm lost (and) almost empty. People thought I've moved on They just didn't see How heartache's killing me I want to forget you But I couldn't, what should I do? How do I live now? I don't really know how We've been together for long (And) I want you all day long But, still I will go on Though, I hadn't moved on I will just try to hide The pain I'm dealing inside It'll be hard, I know But I have to live on This heartache will be over soon. Things will be better, someday, I know, I'll move on.


NO LONGER

BY: MRS. BEE

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I used to live such an empty life Searching for something I couldn't find Didn't have directions, coz life was so unkind I thought I was okay, I thought it was just fine. Until you came, you opened up my eyes You help me see things beyond these lies You filled my life with colors and happiness Now, I don't need to dwell in loneliness. Bye bye! to the old me. Your love has changed the whole me. I'm no longer sad and empty You brought so much joy in me. I'm not alone and searching anymore No more lonely nights just like before I don't have thoughts of me longing inside Because now, you're here, you're here by my side.

Monday, January 27, 2020

Clandestine

November 19, 2019

As the wind blows gently
The relentless stared farther
And like a flowing river
Why'd you left to go yonder?

I often see your smiling face
Yet no one perceived behind is sadness
Can't deny it has made me wonder
Why is it so? Why is it, brother?

A smile that heals an aching heart
Oh, how I love to see a such
One grin eliminates the hurt,
Your laughter echoes in my heart

Your friendly greetings, hugs and smile
Warms someone's mind and heart
Yet furtively succumbed to loneliness
You never showed any signs of sadness

Please speak. Talk to me, will you?
But you're gone now...
Don't know where to find you.
Why you didn't let me hear you?

Nonetheless. I could only whisper.
In the wind, I utter hopes and pray'r
It hurts so bad, my heart yearns for you.
But maybe, somehow, you're happy too.

Longing to see you, yet, I hope for peace.
That somehow, in your resting place
You're now enjoying your tranquility.
No longer relentless, perhaps, lying in serenity....





(For a friend, a brother now resting in peace)





Thursday, January 24, 2019

DUSK



By: Mrs. Bee



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What is lurking behind the beauty,
That marauders of youth would love to steal?
No one is above the year's sanction
Nobody is entitled for exclusion.

The wrinkles around her enervating eyes
Speak about the laughters and tears in her years
The gray strands crowning that one beaut of a hair
Where deriding human eyes would dare to stare

The potency of youth that cluctched on
In dilemma she have called forth wisdom
Strength where have you gone?
The juvenile bustling rushing for freedom.

The once straight sturdy legs
Bowed and weak, ruffled and slow
Back arches and often aches
A pair of eyes devoid of glow.

But nonetheless, as rainbow fades
The glory dwindles and the beauty vanish
The ecstasy beyond the years of the wrinkled
Can sometimes be loud, mysterious and muffled

Yet overall, fulfillment dwells inside
Beyond the gray hair acuity and joy resides
No matter how wrinkled and frame becomes frail
Her prudence will be told like an old rousing tale
© 2019 BeECRUZader  All Rights Reserved


~~Para kay nanay kong mahal~~


Sunday, January 18, 2015

THE CLUBHOUSE STORY

By: Mrs. Bee 
              

KRRRNG! The loud sound of the bell ringing is heard in the entire campus of Dalubhasaang Epifanio de los Santos.The year was 1987. 

The school has started to be filled with students rushing their way to the school’s canteen.

It’s break time. 

At the grade 5 classroom, everyone sped up through the door, each one race to be the first one to get out of the room, while little Betchay, a 10 year old girl, stay seated counting the coins in her hand. ‘I only need one more peso.’ She uttered in her mind.

“Let’s go buy our food.” Said Nenita her classmate and a close confidant. She reluctantly followed. Afraid to become the hot topic again as her classmates would often buzzed about her for not having any food to eat again for snack.

And while Nenita is choosing the food in front of the counter, little Betchay watched from behind.

This has become the scene most of the time, if not everyday in the latter’s life. Then they'd usually walk their way through the wide and covered pathway to join their other classmates to play.

As they reached the place, before Betchay even sit near the bushes, she heard a whimper from behind. She followed the groaning voice, and right behind the shrub was a young girl weeping.

“Why are you crying?” Inquired Betchay.

“I’m hungry.” The young girl abruptly replied, she's about 7 years of age. Betchay’s hand traveled through the pocket of her skirt bringing out the coins she was counting a moment ago. 

Again, she counted them and… “Come with me.” She said, putting her right arm on the kid’s shoulder. 

“I’ll come back later.”  She panned her head towards Nenita.

When the girls enter the store, Betchay’s eyes started to venture at the copious packs of food hanging upfront and behind the lady who's been irritatingly staring at her waiting for her to decide which stuffs to buy.

“How much is that?” She asked pointing at one big plastic packed with smaller packets of foods in it. 

“One fifty.” The lady briefly answered.

“How about...that one?” Pointing at the big transparent plastic full of yellow small packs of snacks inside. 

“Fifty centavos.” The lady answered in annoyance. 

"Umn, that one?" She asked again pouting her lips to another plactic pack but the woman got pissed off. She crossed her arms in front of her, she raised a brow and glowered.

“Okay that one." Aware of the woman's gesture she pointed back to the yellow colored pack of nosh.

"Please give me two.” Picking the coins from her palm she handed them over to the woman who in turn gave her the two packs of “Zeb-zeb,” a corn puff. 

She gave the other one to the young girl who instantly stepped ahead leaving her gazing at the food displayed on the glass shelf. 

She looked at the food she’s holding in her hand and to the shelf, then gazed at the coins left in her palm and felt a bit sad. 

Bethchay turned her head to where the girl is standing and saw her waiting for her. 

Realizing that the young kid is having a hard time opening the plastic pack of her corn puff, she sauntered with a speedy gait to help her. 

The little girl immediately consumed hers, that was nearly empty when they arrived at the place where they were previously at.

And before the little girl left, “You should come back here again, tomorrow." She beamingly said.

"Just come to me if you don’t have anything for snack.” Said Bethchay. The little girl nodded then hastily run away with a smile on her lips.

On the next day, while still a distant from the pathway, Betchay could already see the young girl smiling and waving at her. She signalled the little one to come closer.

At the canteen, Bethchay is asking the same angry lady, who's already scowling at her for inquiring about such and such packs of chips, biscuits and cookies. But they ended up eating the corn puff, “Zeb-zeb” again. 

After emptying the plastic of food they went their separate ways. Bethchay played football (Pinoy football kids version) with her classmates, while the little girl played with her friends.

On the third day of feeding the little one, they both have “Coco Honey” (a coconut flavored biscuit) for a snack, since it cost the same as the corn puff they were eating.

Among her classmates, Little Betchay alone has one peso for allowance (baon), while the rest of her classmates’ allowance ranges from ten pesos up to as high as fifty pesos.

Which is why she needs to save up for the food she wanted to eat, just in case she craved for the food that cost beyond her allowance. 

However, among all the food in the canteen, which is located below Betchay’s classroom, there's one that she'd always envisioned to taste, which makes her world stop every time she’d see it. 

Most people in the campus would find her in front of the glass shelf spending a minute or so staring at the mouth-watering clubhouse sandwich, oozing with mayonnaise that was spread in it. 

Though unaware of all the stuffs filled in the sandwich she’s craving, she still finds it delightful. But for years she’s been waiting and eyeing to eat it, she haven’t tasted one, since her allowance is always not enough, because the clubhouse sandwich costs three days of her allowance. 

Even if she tried to save for it, most of the time there are unexpected things occurred in a day making her spend some if not all of her money, like buying a piece of writing paper, paying for a piece of theme paper or a bond paper maybe and many other things. And now, another situation has emerged, a girl is hungry and needs to be fed.

Days and weeks gone by, and the two little kids were still together every morning during breaktime enjoying their food that is, if not the corn puff, it’s a biscuit in coconut flavor with a sugar on top (Coco honey).

But one day, Betchay arrived earlier than the usual at the covered walkway. The little girl hasn't arrived yet, so she decided to sit beside her classmates who were having their snacks. Minutes have passed and yet the little girl was still nowhere to be found. Breaktime was over and so Betchay hesitantly started to striding to her classroom. Wondering where the little girl could be. 

'She might get even hungrier if she didn't eat today.' She worriedly thought of her.

Maybe she’s absent.’ She concluded to brush away the troubles in her mind.

But then again, the little girl did not show up the next day, and the next day. And the day after that next day.

Maybe she’s sick.’ She thought again. 

Weekend past, and she’s stood again near the briers but did not wait that long, she stood up and went to the little one’s classroom to inquire. The teacher of the young girl said she had no idea whether the little one will still or will not show up for school anymore. She has no news from her or any of her relatives she added.

Unhappy, Betchay returned to her classroom a bit clueless on how she'd spend the next coming days, since she became accustomed to the new routine she had for more than a month.

But just like any other ordinary kid, she has moved on and forgotten about the girl. And her days become as if she have never met the young lass. 

Years past, and little Betchay still hasn’t tasted the clubhouse sandwich she's longing to eat during her elementary and high school days. But this time it's not because she cannot save for it nor she does help another kid, but because the craving has stopped for what reason? That I do not know.

The memories with that little girl kept visiting her once in a while, She even sometimes thought of the camaraderie they’ve had, her smile, and while playing with her and how they played and laughed with her friends.

The long dream of tasting that sandwich may not have happened during those times I most wanted to try it, but my regret is not because of choosing not to taste it and share my allowance with a younger kid but… of not knowing the name of that little girl.

Why didn’t I bother to ask her name anyway? Until now, I cannot still find the answer why the little me did not do so.